Get what you ask for.

"A word to the wise ain't necessary - it's the stupid ones that need the advice. "
- Bill Cosby

Everyone has always said that there are no stupid questions, just stupid people. Yesterday, I was that stupid person but at the same time asking a VERY stupid question. 

Previously in a few of my blogs I had mentioned that I thought that family and friends had been protecting me from myself for a few years telling me I'm not fat but instead pretty and good looking. Last night I made the STUPIDEST mistake because when I uttered the words, "Am I as fat at that guy?",  Trevor without hesitation responded after looking and said "Yes".

OMG! What did I do? I just unraveled the remainder of the spider webs in my brain cavity, holding together my thoughts of okayness! So what I should know is my ass does look fat in these pants and that you could pinch my elbow fat if you were try! I will admit, it was hurtful, a bit of a slap but honestly - Should any of us ask questions like that if we aren't willing to actually get the truth from someone?

I was pretty much sitting in the car holding a bazooka to Trevor's head. This is because we all know that if he had said "NO!", I'd still be questioning his answer in my head or even call him out on it. Either way, he was probably going to lose, but yet here I am with the answer I needed and perhaps now I've learnt the lesson to shut my yap. If you're having a day where you aren't feeling like a bloated beluga on dry land...don't ask the question you don't want the answer to, just go find some more water. 

On a positive spin though, Av did measure me yesterday before we worked out and I am VERY pleased to report that since June 10th, my body has changed to the smaller side of things by 11 inches. I really wish that I had started out this whole thing by measuring myself because I'm sure the change would have been even more surprising. I guess that would be one of my pieces of advice for/to people that may be trying to start to do the same thing. Weigh AND Measure yourself as soon as you start. I know that numbers on the scale may seem like a scary thing to face along with the measurement but if you are at this point, you've already to face up to your situation and it can only get better. 

Slowly but surely things are getting better. I've owned up to some of my demons and know where I need to go and have been given some of the tools to take me there. The rest is up to me. Make it work baby cakes!

Shrink your FUPA,

Gillian