"When humans were young, they were pushed around in strollers. When they were old, they were pushed around in wheelchairs. In between, they were just pushed around."
- Unknown
Here I was thinking that the hardest ridicule I would receive in my life at the moment is my level of fatness. Lately though, there are some people that are proving me wrong. I guess trying to start my own business and it being slow means that I have it easy, that I'm a slacker and in some eyes...do NOTHING.
My first reaction is to tell people to bite my large a**, but I'm holding off, biting my tongue and trying to work thru it. If someone is thinking that this is easy, that I don't have moments of self-doubt and that this should just be taking off, I would love to just step aside and let them take over. I understand that probably the majority of these people are upset with how their own life turned out and are now putting their frustrations on me, but lord, give me a break.
For those of you that think that this is easy, this is what I face. I have five years of University and College under my belt followed by a year and a half as an Intern for the department of National Defense. These factors have all worked towards me having over 56,000$ in student loan debt! After completing my work-term with military I was unable to find work in my field. I believe that I was doing what I was suppose to do. Go to University, do what I love, educate myself to give my life a head start. I am now working my ass off trying to start my own business because to put it bluntly, there are no jobs. I could work for McDonald's, sure, but hows that going to tackle my student loans debt and not make the last seven years of my life a waste of time.
If anyone thinks that this is easy and that I wouldn't rather have someone else sign my paychecks, be guaranteed a salary and work nine to five than you need to have your head examined. I have cried more in the last year and a half than I would ever care to.
If anyone would like to take on my body, my student loan debt and the situation of my career please feel free to call me. If not please keep your nasty comments to yourself. I'm dealing with enough of those in my own head.
The educated and still surviving,
Gill
