"If you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; that is where they should be. Now put foundations under them."
- Henry David Thoreau
Today is one of those days...I'm pumped but at the same time I'm worried and I'm anxious. Now that the weight is coming off there seems to be a voice screaming in the back of my head all of the "what ifs" that may or may not happen.I'm scared that what if my weight loss doesn't continue and I'm not working hard enough. What if I lose a lot of this weight and then I look horrible because my skin is sagging all over the place and then I'm trapped in the body of an 80 year old woman. I am far from being a millionaire and there is no way that I would be able to afford skin removal surgery.
I have spent the morning reading blogs, threads and sites that talk about this problem. Even ran across a thread from a girl that lost over 80 pounds of weight and was only 19 when she finished and had saggy skin. Say wha?! I thought that the younger we are the more elastic the skin is and the more collagen we have. I understand that genetics are a large part of what happens and the rate that you lose your weight, but isn't it genetics that got me in this with the combination of other things?
While I was surfing and finding things that made me more anxious (sometimes the internet is a curse because there is too much information available from so many sources) I ran a crossed a product called Skin Tight by Nourish. The reviews seem pretty good and its suppose to help with firming and helping the skin deal with all the changes. I may have just been sucked into some bulls***, but at the moment I'm willing to give into something that perhaps will lend me a little more hope that everything will work out. Perhaps this will be a placebo, but right at the moment...I just need a little something to help me towards where I need to be.
This morning wasn't spent just panicking about what could be, I also found some online yoga and pilates that I hope to put into my workout routine. Keep in mind I have not tried these yet but I am going to post this so that if anyone else would like to try then they have the option - Yoga - http://www.yogajournal.com/podcast/ and the Pilates can be found if you go to Youtube and type in "Pop Pilates". Heres hoping that they are worth it and will make a difference.
Take care, comb your hair,
Gillian
