Not a good week.I thought after the way I was feeling last week that perhaps things were going into an upward swing. Now I'm wondering that getting engaged was what had given me the better feeling. I still feel overwhelmed and blissful that we are engaged and that we will get to plan a wedding and start a life. But underneath that..the stress and crappy feeling is coming back.
There are things that are stressing me out far more than I could have imagined. Its amazing how you can enjoy something so much...but on the second note, it is stressful and you feel as though you are given far more to do and handle than others are while that sit and relax and make it thru each day doing the minimum. I am hoping that things get better...I hope they get better. They have to get better.
With Christmas coming I've been worrying about paying for gifts and getting that out of the way..but I'm sorry, this week when I get paid on Thursday I will be heading to Goodlife to sign up for me. I need something to help me thru this and my workouts may do that. Other aspects of my life aren't worrying about me and my well being. It's time again I have control at least my life at home.
Struggling.
Gillian
