Proposal

"A happy marriage is a long conversation which always seems too short."
– Andre Maurois

Surprise! I am now an engaged woman as of Sunday afternoon.
Now I'll have to be on my game for weightloss because we are headed on an even larger journey together.
Engagement, wedding, home..and then hopefully ...you know whats after that.
I want this to be everything I didn't think I could have.

Goal = fit into any dress I want.

Smile large.
Gillian

Slacker

"Procrastination is like a credit card: it's a lot of fun until you get the bill."
- Christopher Parker

This bill...my ass can't cash. 

It's been forever, (November 2nd), since I last blogged. In all honesty I've been avoiding it like I've been avoiding everything else lately. This month started off with a cold which I think rolled around like an ugly dirt covered snow ball into depression and sadness. 

I've been feeling so stressed, down and with a topping of a sense of frustration and failing. Never mind the cherry on top of that mess, it's full of sugar anyways.

This month has been full of a lot of tears, not enough water and denial. I feel as though I've been putting immense pressure on myself, as well as receiving it from a few other directions. After Trevor's birthday on the 15th I...for the second time since starting to lose weight...was up a single pound. It didn't sting as much as the first time (there were no tears or the question of WHAT HAPPENED!?), but it still had a burn. I'm pretty sure that tomorrow will also involve some of the same numbers when I approach the scale. 

Although I have been feeling down and out, I have NOT settle for not keeping myself accountable. I have stepped onto the scale so that I do not sink further into the fog I am currently in.

With the snow falling today, the feelings that I've been covered in, like a heavy blanket, are slowly starting to melt away. While the stress from work, losing weight and life in general are still there, I am once again starting to feel as though I am capable of picking myself up and pushing myself forward.

Within the next few weeks I will once again be switching gyms and again...it is out of convenience. It is nice to walk into a gym that on most occasions you are either alone or only there with a few other people but it will also be nice to again only be associated with a swipe card and a number. 

Work gets a deal with Goodlife and is also willing to pay me up to $250.00 a year in health costs if I go to the gym approx 10 times a month. I can do that! Even more so when I am able to go to whichever is the most convient for the day. I look forward to trying out the all female location as well as the co-ed one when it is the only thing left open. Working shifts that can go until 2 in the morning isn't good for a gym that closes by 930 at night. I need to be able to sleep in and not have an hour to workout, shower, primp and be to work.

I am changing...so I guess my routine and comfort levels need to as well. I am sure all of this is going to make me stronger and a better person. That or I will be the recipient of a heart attack in the next few years. If so, please let it be while I'm still fat. It would be a real kick in the teeth to get thin and then die.

I hope you are all healthy, happy and feeling beautiful. I think of many of you on a daily basis and only wish for comfort and happiness for each of you.  You are wonderful.

Peace of mind goes a long way..

I'm just missing some..

Gillian

Deal

"A gentle word, a kind look, a good-natured smile can work wonders and accomplish miracles."
- William Hazlitt

Good morning beautiful people!

Hope everyone is well and this brisk, chilly fall day is finding you all healthy and happy and without a cold. Being sick was the pits but thankfully the coughing is coming to an end and my lungs are taking in air like they should. 

Work is also going well and for the next two weeks at least there are a row of days that I work almost normal hours so I am able to get up, ready and to the gym by 8 which is even more lovely than I thought it would be. To already have that under my belt and even a session of light therapy makes the day seem just that much better.

I had the pleasure of going to visit Av this week at work and was measured while I was there. Pleasantly surprised honestly. I've lost at least and inch of my Abs in less than a month and another inch from other body parts. It's good to know that even though I haven't been losing much that things are on the move. It all reassures that I am on the right track and headed in the right direction. 

Of course, no weights this morning because of the weigh in tomorrow. As long as I lose it will be a good time. 

I will admit though that now that I'm getting more used to the working and such I need to watch what I'm putting in my body and at what times. I need to be cleaner and get my water into me. I had been using a water canister that was metal at work but sadly...it wasn't 1L and that's what I need. The others that I've had since I started this journey were sadly leaking and no longer convient to carry is a bad so yesterday on my day off (Trev took a vacation day) we went to many places trying to find another but I guess with the end of the Summer  season the bottles go off the shelves. Of course though, on the way home I did a last stitch effort and stopped at Canadian Tire. Not only did they have bottles that were 1L...I got to the cash and got it for less than 1/3 of the price!!! Say what!? Thank you Canadian Tire! You da store! It's 1L and its PINK! HUZZA. Always in the last place you'd think to look.

On another note...with the colder weather and having the windows closed up more often now, I know many of you burn more candles like I do to not only clean the air but put out a great smell....I have to recommend the Febreeze, wood wick Cranberry Pear. It's so nice to smell something so lovely, it almost makes the house feel warmer and cozier. If anyone has any candles that do the same for them please email me the names cause I'm up for a change once in awhile. 

Fuzzy Slipper,

Gillian