I went to school so I could get the job. But I'm finding all I really got was a mass amount of debt. The job I have is yes in my field but I'm being paid so poorly that I cannot tackle the debt.
To add a touch of insult to injury, where I work has now hired someone fresh out of high school that we are now training. Due to the little amount we do make this person must be making on par as us because if not there is no way she can afford to live. But then again maybe if she has no bills or doesn't eat.... Often if at all.
How is it that someone untrained, is being hired to do my job? I guess the first night of training did not go so well because there is a lack of understanding of programs and such ghat designers use (shocker) and the stress and frustrations from the person that had been the trainer of the trainee was needless to say frustrated and expressed these frustrations today... but I'm finding that I should help and spoon feed this poor person. Not only so they dont get canned but because my days are so busy it would be nice to have another set of hands to alleviate some pressure. Is there honestly no other trained professionals out there?
Also I'm sure my stress, depression and ever widening ass would like to be to get up and walk around once in awhile and eat often like I am suppose to. I am not joking that sometimes its so busy I don't register that my body is screaming at me that I need to go pee or need simple things like water or nourishment. I'm sure my kidneys are loving me these days for the length of time that I have to hold it and when I do get to go..I can't because I have to so badly. I'm sure you may be thinking "so get another job", to that I offer back, feel free to do a search for photography and graphic design jobs and see how many hits you get.
The thing is ... Yes, others like myself are annoyed and frustrated that someone fresh out of high school is being hired to work along side us but the pissyness shouldn't be towards this poor person. They should have never been put in this situation. But honestly...really.
Besides my financial situation, my fat situation is getting me down. Before starting this job I was losing at a good rate but since... I'm on a perpetual standstill. I'm too tired, overworked, frustrated and pissed off now for a large segment of my life. The stress and depression are boxing me in to the fat corner and I can't get out. If I wasn't so fat, I'd be a hooker. At least then I'd be able to afford to pay off some of my student loans.
Keith says to use the bad emotions to fuel my workouts but honestly and truthfully I'm tired... Exhausted.
I did what I was suppose to. I went to school. I got educated. Then I got fucked. Those of us with student loans are enemy number one to the government. I feel like a criminal and like I've stolen food from a baby. While so many people get to have babies, get paid for it and make more than I do? (this is no lie...this is a honest fact).
Why didn't the guidance councilor tell the rest of us to have babies, not work and be taken care of by the rest of the working population?
I bet they sleep better at night.
